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Dear Mother, Tonight, instead of enjoying my movie time with my father, I was left to worry about your well-being because you were on the side of the highway stranded, and drunk. I was left to sit there crying and worrying and not being able to focus on the movie at hand. It still amazes me how much you value your drink. You went from not drinking to only drinking when I wasnt there to drinking when i wasn't around. You dont apologize anymore. But then again, I'm not going to make you promise anything anymore for i have lost my faith in you. I have lost my faith in you to quit drinking, or to even keep your word. I had to wonder tonight if I

my heart shattered into a million tiny fragments and my body did not know how to react. and with every breath i took, the sharp little pieces sliced the insides of my lungs and then breathing and living hurt so bad. and my bones began to slowly turn to dust. they turned to dust until that dust had filtered out through my skin until i no longer had a structure. and i had to teach myself how to walk again and how to move, for you were my support system. and my eyes. my valued valued eyes dried up. dried up from not being able to see the sight of you. for the mere vision of you made them well up, but now they haven't created a singl